C.O.N.F.U.S.E?

Recently, lot of frens share their own prob with me..
Automatically i will share with them a lot...
But, now is like not much to tell them
why? because every1 having different situation..
So is better be their listener..

For me, honestly im oso hv d confuse time..
Who is me..
What im actually is?
What i want?
Why i cant mix with them?
Why why why....

Keep thinking of it since long long time ago..
But who knows,maybe d solution is in front of you or hiding you..
maybe d next day u r not in this world anymore
im just know now wat im doing..

So, always ask urself...if now left 1 minute..
What will u do?
Still confuse? I think no time for u to do that...
So y dun just dun think too much but hold on this moment

As long as we wont regret that is better enough..
Sumthing just like a watermelon..
When u throw it...it will sink n few minutes or hour it will float on the surface..

This mean time will help decide such things that din hv solution
Or things that d "hak" of decision is not belongs to you..

So,my dear frens enjoy ur life ya...
Coz life is only once n u r d unique n cant be replace by any1

cheer up by,
Sin Yee

Special for u

Finish my MUET exam today...
Results is..maximum i think can get band 3 only..
Haiz..lets talk bout other...

hey, u know im writting it for u rite?
be tough ya...u r strong n self dicipline enough since d first day i know u..
maybe we r not tat close anymore since different study place now..

but, dun 4get i wil always be there for u...
so anything must share with me...
especially when u need a shoulder..

thx for ur encouragement n actually n need a lot of braveness
to let u know bout tht...i mean him...
coz not much ppl know bout tht

times can heal everything n i wish i wun waste too much of time to put him down
haha..u too..im very xin tong to c u feel hurt to tht fellow..
dun feel tht is a pain but is a gain ya..

all the best ya...my old fren...hehe

concerning by:
ur old fren

Dear Burfday ( 24th of April 2009)

Such a few weeks din updated my blog ady..
Hmm...today is my "2nd wife" vicky's bday..
Handmake sumthing to her as a present..
Treat her for kfc oso..hehe coz long time din eat le..almost 3 yrs i think..

tommoro we r all having MUET exam..
nervous coz i need at least Band 4
but with my weak sentences making n poor grammar using..i think abit danger ...
still need to fight till d last minutes lah..

2nd things is i skip for my chemistry lecture today..feel guilty leh..sob T.T
Thn, is like feel ntg much to talk wif my class gang..dunno y...
Besides tht, i still choose to continue tht way...even though is just wait..
coz still believe in miracle...

Talk bout aim for wat universities with my classmates..
Realize that is quite difficult oso n depends on sum luck..
but do this actually motivate me?

In additions, i get my mid term results...first time fail..
summore is 2 subject..
really failed leh...unbelievable..haha
is that consider normal to hv such first time?

hmm..dunno wat to write ady...
tats all n gotto study MUET ...

updated by,
Sin Yee

15th of April 2009

Hmm...actually dunno wat to write for today..
But, just feel that want to write sumthing else here..
D feel so complicated...haha

Disect my second rat today..
A fat female rat...blood come outs ady..
So cruel...luckily doraemon help me today..thx ya..

I want to left my mind n brain in blank...
dun wan to bother n think anything..
just want to be myself...
and stop thinking for other ppl..

Is it difficult?
mentally tired...I wish to have some way to release my stress
any way as it is work to me

still have a lot of things havent do..

1. maths tutorial havent finish..
2. chemistry tutorial n revision havent done oso
3. biology din touch it at all
4. PA din study at all too
5. script for pertandingan pengisahan havent write
6.MUET exam coming
7.Guitar skill not yet pro
8.need to train my squash skill too...

lazy me..
Sin Yee

11st of April 2009

Suddenly, think bout d reason y im having tis blog...
I think this is d only way for me to write or say out sumthing that
I doesnt dare to speak out or say to the other..

Is not say that i dun hv fren to share with me but they have their prob to solve oso..
So, is better to write here especially d things that is ady happen but i dunno solution..

First, am i still care him? definitely yes...
Gosh, tis make me more tired...
I cant use any words to describe d feeling to him but i know im still stubborn on him

"I cant do or say nothing because he was he and i was i"
a lot of things to tell him but mind become blank when saw him..
pretend that he is not in my mind but still will observe him ..

we r fren but actually we doent looks like fren at all..
am i wrong to let him know bout that?
i guess not but im regret to tell him...
not becoz i dun feel like tat anymore but just want to be like fren as be4
i wish i hv tat braveness to talk to u..
but actually i know i dun have..

Xin ying call me today,wat a suprised call..
glad to listen to her..hope she will come to kl soon..
thanx for her encouragement oso...

Tat day hv view a book which the title is journey to the hell
inside there written that if sum1 talk bout d bad of the other
will get the punishment when u die n go to the hell

I was thinking actually what is good and bad?
Is that becoz of afraid getting punishment so u din do the bad things or say sumthing bad..
but actually u dun really think like what u did?

There is only one step between heaven and hell
But is that really important yo us?
We wont even know where we will go through after we death..
So, just appreciate now and this moment that we still alive..

Time flies, gonna finish my f6 life soon n STPM is coming..
havent prepare at all even though teacher keep persuade us to study..
I din have high expectation but just hope can go through the universities i choose..
That was enough for me already..

9s2b tis class really give me a lot of feeling n memories that i doent hv it during my secondary school..
although we r not the best, i like this class rather than other..
glad to have all of them such as ruru, 1 cent, swen, mimi, kylie n pei ee n oso kausaliya
sumtimes i admit that i din hv much topic to talk with them
but at least they still act me as a part of them..
just i still very poor in my communication skill

during 38 time i can be really 38...but if want chat with me i will be very boring..
dunno y?== i really nothing can say loh is like only some nonsense,gossip or study thing only..
ntg more besides of that...really like to daydream even though lecture time..
really cant cure this sickness loh..
Some1 have d way to solve it ar?

updated by,
Sin Yee

Recently

6th of April 2009, our class 9s2b was going to happy 4 season restaurant

for taking our class photo that use for class magazine...

Quite cooperate oso coz 16 out of 19 are going on that day..

Me as usual din tk so much photo oso coz doesnt like to take photo..haha

Get all of my exam result...almost all fail..sad...n feel like no motivation at all..

how?confused for my future now, but just hope to be blur everyday..

Feel exhausted...everyday bk home in late time just because dun wan to stay at home..

y? hmm...i think i just dun wan to heard mumbling from my mum...n..emm...

I dun wan have arguement with her...so every day like finding reason to bk home lately..

In the same time...tis week i hv ady done my first part of disection of rat...

To observed the down part organ of rats, it still very smelly...

even I wear d mask and glove while doing disection..

Ya, i know is very cruel but no choice coz im taking bio n tis is a part of syllabus..

What i can sure is im respecting d rat n i appreciate it to let me know more of its organ...

May God bless u in peace..

Need to study my MUET exam ady...tats all for this week..^^

Here are some photo for disecting d rat...hehe

4th of April 2009

Today after chemistry class, me n my classmate going to sunway pyramid..
First time going out with them...really...tats y feel very happy to hv tis chance..

We going there by taking lrt thn change KTM..hehe
In additions , tis is my first time taking KTM lo...
feel like floating on the boat...haha

Than, we go there by taking the mini bus which consider a horrible bus...
Coz the bus taking d amount of passenger is more than d limit...
Somemore, he din close d door...
Imagine that if he suddenly break..will d passenger fly out from d car?

Finally, we reach there ady..that place change a lot...
Lot of shop oso n the item oso quite expensive ...
bought a chocolate n an item...

Some of my fren oso hv bought some item...
But, it represent we need to save money start from next week..
Coz my wallet ady certified..haha
No cure..T.T

But, overall is a very happy trip today...
Thx for ur guys ya!!!

1st Of April

Hurray!!! Done all my biology project n getting d marks ady...
Finally, no need worry anymore...haha

Just because of rushing those project ..makes me cant come here to update..
haha now is like put down a heavy stone ady....phew...

Yesterday get back my PA karangan test paper...
Thought can get d good marks...
Unfortunately, hv some technical problem which is i write too much for 1 essay..
Too many point ady n too much word ady...
1 essay for around 800++ words...

This let me get d low marks for my karangan...
hurt...n the result will be post to my home..
how? I oso dunno...just wait for the punishment..

Anyway, today is april fool n lucky is that i havent kena play yet..
wakaka...n today oso my colleague d birthday who name Shu Zhen..
Happy Birthday to her!!!

latest update by,
Sin Yee