生气吗?

莫名其妙的我生气了...是小气吗?
其实感觉上我在气我自己....我追不上他的脚步
纵使我很拼命的跟,一方面是鞋子关系...
他很拼命牵着我走快..因为下雨...我不喜欢这种感觉
很不自在,生气自己伤口疼痛无发走快...而且路滑多人
所以当时真的不想牵手...总觉得自己是负累...
不是第一次了.....难道不止现实上跟不上脚步而其实我们
都没在同一个脚步上吗?伤口不听话的痛了...T.T

今,我

结束了,可是我不在那儿
心痛着自己无法参与
无能为力的事情
别人无法了解
也无法帮助
心是灰色
天是蓝色
一切就是这么的现实
我彻底败给自己...........

Brand new post after a long period

Hi,im cindy, have been a long time i didn't write something here
Something tht happened recently n i felt like it just a dream for me
Now I'm ady 22 and being through my first operation too...the wound will be left forever in my life n it does remind me a lot of things

Started being hardworking on my studies too..ya im still studying
still getting pocket money form parents in such kind of age
so embarassing, is true tht i realized how realistic for some of so call "true friend" and so call
good teacher who say will help u but lastly i do all things by my own but he do expected me can do everything nicely....n simply gv other ppl good grades but de things nt done by themselves

Thx for all of u who hurt me and sarcastic me,i will rmb all of this n proved to u all somedays...
u all are nt tht good only n wait for me.... im sure can be better someday .