2014 first post

Hi all, it's been a long time didn't hang up here, a big change for me, have to learn how to control my tempered and let it go... not an easy task for me with an illogical mum i have, my dear GOD , have you heard me, could you please let my mum to be more easy going as time gone by, her sickness gradually serious already, imagination with those negative things could be getting ever more stronger, if YOU choose to let her be, please let me go, go away from those mentally torture.... AMEN.

生气吗?

莫名其妙的我生气了...是小气吗?
其实感觉上我在气我自己....我追不上他的脚步
纵使我很拼命的跟,一方面是鞋子关系...
他很拼命牵着我走快..因为下雨...我不喜欢这种感觉
很不自在,生气自己伤口疼痛无发走快...而且路滑多人
所以当时真的不想牵手...总觉得自己是负累...
不是第一次了.....难道不止现实上跟不上脚步而其实我们
都没在同一个脚步上吗?伤口不听话的痛了...T.T

今,我

结束了,可是我不在那儿
心痛着自己无法参与
无能为力的事情
别人无法了解
也无法帮助
心是灰色
天是蓝色
一切就是这么的现实
我彻底败给自己...........

Brand new post after a long period

Hi,im cindy, have been a long time i didn't write something here
Something tht happened recently n i felt like it just a dream for me
Now I'm ady 22 and being through my first operation too...the wound will be left forever in my life n it does remind me a lot of things

Started being hardworking on my studies too..ya im still studying
still getting pocket money form parents in such kind of age
so embarassing, is true tht i realized how realistic for some of so call "true friend" and so call
good teacher who say will help u but lastly i do all things by my own but he do expected me can do everything nicely....n simply gv other ppl good grades but de things nt done by themselves

Thx for all of u who hurt me and sarcastic me,i will rmb all of this n proved to u all somedays...
u all are nt tht good only n wait for me.... im sure can be better someday .

Feeling after Shun,Ng concert

The story happened like tht, after the concert
On the way bk,we are going for our supper since ah duan was hungry...
Thn, teacher suddenly ask us whether ady clear about what road we r choosing for our future...
At tht moment,i really cant even gv out 1 words n i just simple say maybe i need to change to study others instead of music
The needs of being a well known performer i ady miss out tht golden time,!st might becoz my age, thn my basic n lastly my psycho prob
How darei say out i hope to be a performer n today tht guitarist was same age with me n he was damn enjoy to his own performance
how much he pay effort for his guitar,im sure is more thn me for a hundred thousand miles
I dun dare to promise anything
Seriously.......

A new blog post after a long rest

2011, is brand new year but is almost getting to end now...
Honestly,i din even achieved any plan tht i aim for this year
In the same time, i felt i started lost myself sumtimes
Im still tht kind of lazy student
Many things waiting for me to get it done
but i still like very relax n always last minutes
My mind will always tell me do it later instead of now
I always thought i will start it tomoro
but tomoro n tomoro
Im still the same
I hate this kind of me
Really
I cant like this le
wake up pls
chance only reserved for those who prepare well enough...

22/10/10

Really a long time didnt come here write down my stuff le...
Feel so unhappy with my unreasonable mum...
Y, y i got such mum...
Everything oso not happy with me...
Y she doesnt know to change a bit,
Y always im the one who did the wrong things...
Cant she feel it i already dun like to stay at home...
I scare to face her, scare to argue with her...
Thts y i will find a lot of reason to hang out...
I dun like to stay at home..
Dun like to keep arguing with the same prob..
I wish to tell her loudly ,ya ,im dating n im really love him,so what!!!!
But doesnt mean will influence my studies
Y cant she understand me n keep on thinking bad things will happened to me...
Cant she support me abit?
I wish to escape from my home....i wish to move out to stay alone....
Better thn keep on arguing with you everyday...
Im going to get mad soon if continue like tht....