22/10/10

Really a long time didnt come here write down my stuff le...
Feel so unhappy with my unreasonable mum...
Y, y i got such mum...
Everything oso not happy with me...
Y she doesnt know to change a bit,
Y always im the one who did the wrong things...
Cant she feel it i already dun like to stay at home...
I scare to face her, scare to argue with her...
Thts y i will find a lot of reason to hang out...
I dun like to stay at home..
Dun like to keep arguing with the same prob..
I wish to tell her loudly ,ya ,im dating n im really love him,so what!!!!
But doesnt mean will influence my studies
Y cant she understand me n keep on thinking bad things will happened to me...
Cant she support me abit?
I wish to escape from my home....i wish to move out to stay alone....
Better thn keep on arguing with you everyday...
Im going to get mad soon if continue like tht....

4th of August 2010

Is been 7 months didn't update my blog already...
Started my new study life in MIA instead of TARC...
Doesn't get into local university as what my parents hopes...
Have to spend 3 more years to do my diploma in music...

No regret with that since i happy with my study life now
because it is much more better than working....
Not easy to work in the society nowadays
People is getting more realistic include me XD

Nothing much to write just i swear i will become another me
after 3 years in MIA...

All The Best!!!!

27th of Jan

Im having a complicated mood....but doesnt mean tht im unhappy
Dunno y just feel like a bit weird n i dunno how to describe it...
Mentally n physically tired...

I write sumthing wrong i think...dunno whether tht person really care bout it or not...
hope this wun make it think too much...
Maybe i should really think properly bout what i want...
thn only wun suffer in anything....

Things can be tht simple....
Im just hope tht i wun make it become complicated n difficult...
im still who i am..ntg ever change bout this...

This Moment..

Few weeks didnt update ady leh, my mood just like travelling with roller coaster as well..
Coz sumthing happen with my job, but i think ntg now ady...
Diff ppl diff thinking way, i din angry bout it just hope she will understand my situation
since she want me to do so...
Hope this wun influence us...but im still dunno how to face her leh...

Thn i was quiet worry d leh, ady pain for few days ,din slp well oso...really scare me...
luckily ntg now ar....if not dunno how oso...
But, seems ok with my luck coz happy stuff happen after all of the bad things...

Haha, should be happy always so that no wrinkles ar...XD
Thats all for my post :)

Everything NEW!!!!

This is my first post in year 2010 but today not first of Jan ..XD
A brand new year for me, i hope everything getting smooth in my life..
I hope im choosing the right or suitable way for my own
no matter for my future or my career..

Today is 8 of Jan , what i've done?
First i dye my hair le, new look :)
And i oso but few of new clothes but not allow to wear it now XD
Thn,the most happy thing i hv is i got a new younger sister..

She is kind of happy type...every1 like to be with her coz she always laugh n smile all the time..
Cant deny that she influence me a lot..
Thx GOD that bring this sister for me, im really appreciate her..
Im maybe not a good elder sis but i tried my best to take care of her..:)
We still hv a long way to go so we must add oil together ya:)

Thn, i have to talk bout my guitar ady...
Recently really not much practice...dunno y like losting my heart or my soul even not with my body...
Gosh....How could it happen?
Still want to have grade exam this yr end...
This Friday will start theory class oso..haiz

Must find bk my spirit la.....
To be continue...

惊,喜的一天

今年的十二月十日,应该是我毕生难忘的一天,
为什么?因为惊和喜都发生在这一天了..
STPM终于在当天考完了,没有想呐喊的感觉,
反而额外的平静,考完时大家都到处在学院拍照,
作为留念...我当然也是其中之一咯^^,
解脱了啦,唯一不舍的应该就是朋友和老师吧!

过后,我和朋友去了金河一趟,干嘛呢?
当然是我的最爱"唱K"咯...hehe
此时才发觉多位朋友与老师也不约而同的在那碰面了啦!!哈哈
好巧哦!!于是便拍照起来了,真犹如个大家庭.

再来,我得在此祝福我那两位姐妹,希望她们工作顺利...
我会想你们的:)一起为未来加油^^
也得祝贺蚂蚁天使"生日快乐",虽然迟了一天...

而惊呢,则是老爸突然病了起来,外表刚强的他突然变得苍白
我的心突然好怕好怕,诊所几乎都打烊了,
一路驾着小蓝,看着老爸辛苦的表情,我浑身都开始不自觉的颤抖..
妈又扭伤脚,还未痊愈...
第一次这样,顿时觉得自己很脆弱,手忙脚乱的..

爸妈年纪大了,以后或许会有类似问题...
我应该坚强一些, 人老了就会生病, 而我和哥是他们的依靠..
突然觉得自己得学习更多..

悲喜交际间,我收到了一些关怀的信息.
他们虽然帮不上什么,可是至少我的心定下来许多..
谢谢老师你的信息,会慢慢学习里头的道理
谢谢红蚂蚁的祝福还有谢谢我老板娘,在我紧急时,第一个想到的是你..

这一切都过去了,新的一年要来临了,
我要乘这段时间去完成许多未完成或开始的计划...
时间,我会把握你的!!!

哭了

终于忍不住,一再的哭了...
很痛很痛,讨厌这种感觉...
不喜欢这样的自己...
决定了就不要犹豫...
我要走出这种痛苦...
我不要这种感觉,
我不要!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
很累,惨,悲...
快窒息了!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!