害怕，坚强

2017年，第二篇，前两天终于发生自己最不想经历的事，或许是自己多心，可是开始痛了，很难忍，常会想为什么别人没有的东西我会发生在自己身上，自问自己不是个不上进的人，得过且过的大有人在，为什么只有我，相隔上次手术应该有五年之久，真心希望不是恶化现象，如果真的不好的事发生了，我最放心不下就是身边爱我的人，畏惧就医，不是害怕自己有什么事，而是不想看到身边的人为我难过，祈求上天，让我再有一些时间先完成学业，或许我不是最棒那个，可是至少让我父母看到我带上四方帽那天好吗？就算剩下最后一天，我也希望我还可以练吉他，让音乐和欢乐环绕自己身边。

已经是2017的八月份了

如果不是看了“原谅他77次” 应该不会再回来这里了。
同样的人，只是成熟了，经历了属于自己的生活。
选了音乐这条路，不后悔，面对的难题也就更多，
脸皮相对也变更厚了，我依然保持着谦卑的心态，卑微好像盖过谦虚。。哈哈
想当表演者，就应该有自信甚至犹如别人所说的自恋，无可否认身边都会有自己认为很棒的朋友，或许言语上没有很直接，可是行动上证明没有人喜欢跟自己弱的人一起，换着是我也一样，这不代表我会害怕或疏远你，我会找方法证明自己，非常同意自己在讲座会学习到的一席话， 不要介意别人如何看待你，因为她或他不能代表你或了解你曾经经历的一切，手震，打结，种种评语，都会成为我努力的原动力。加油！！

新搭档，多多指教 ：）

IMAGE， 自己的第一支🎸合奏团体，感谢你们愿意陪我参赛。

2014 first post

Hi all, it's been a long time didn't hang up here, a big change for me, have to learn how to control my tempered and let it go... not an easy task for me with an illogical mum i have, my dear GOD , have you heard me, could you please let my mum to be more easy going as time gone by, her sickness gradually serious already, imagination with those negative things could be getting ever more stronger, if YOU choose to let her be, please let me go, go away from those mentally torture.... AMEN.

生气吗?

莫名其妙的我生气了...是小气吗?
其实感觉上我在气我自己....我追不上他的脚步
纵使我很拼命的跟,一方面是鞋子关系...
他很拼命牵着我走快..因为下雨...我不喜欢这种感觉
很不自在,生气自己伤口疼痛无发走快...而且路滑多人
所以当时真的不想牵手...总觉得自己是负累...
不是第一次了.....难道不止现实上跟不上脚步而其实我们
都没在同一个脚步上吗?伤口不听话的痛了...T.T

今,我

结束了,可是我不在那儿
心痛着自己无法参与
无能为力的事情
别人无法了解
也无法帮助
心是灰色
天是蓝色
一切就是这么的现实
我彻底败给自己...........

Brand new post after a long period

Hi,im cindy, have been a long time i didn't write something here
Something tht happened recently n i felt like it just a dream for me
Now I'm ady 22 and being through my first operation too...the wound will be left forever in my life n it does remind me a lot of things

Started being hardworking on my studies too..ya im still studying
still getting pocket money form parents in such kind of age
so embarassing, is true tht i realized how realistic for some of so call "true friend" and so call
good teacher who say will help u but lastly i do all things by my own but he do expected me can do everything nicely....n simply gv other ppl good grades but de things nt done by themselves

Thx for all of u who hurt me and sarcastic me,i will rmb all of this n proved to u all somedays...
u all are nt tht good only n wait for me.... im sure can be better someday .

Feeling after Shun,Ng concert

The story happened like tht, after the concert
On the way bk,we are going for our supper since ah duan was hungry...
Thn, teacher suddenly ask us whether ady clear about what road we r choosing for our future...
At tht moment,i really cant even gv out 1 words n i just simple say maybe i need to change to study others instead of music
The needs of being a well known performer i ady miss out tht golden time,!st might becoz my age, thn my basic n lastly my psycho prob
How darei say out i hope to be a performer n today tht guitarist was same age with me n he was damn enjoy to his own performance
how much he pay effort for his guitar,im sure is more thn me for a hundred thousand miles
I dun dare to promise anything
Seriously.......