L!VE OF My L!FE

Feeling after Shun,Ng concert

2011-11-26T08:29:00.000-08:00

The story happened like tht, after the concert
On the way bk,we are going for our supper since ah duan was hungry...
Thn, teacher suddenly ask us whether ady clear about what road we r choosing for our future...
At tht moment,i really cant even gv out 1 words n i just simple say maybe i need to change to study others instead of music
The needs of being a well known performer i ady miss out tht golden time,!st might becoz my age, thn my basic n lastly my psycho prob
How darei say out i hope to be a performer n today tht guitarist was same age with me n he was damn enjoy to his own performance
how much he pay effort for his guitar,im sure is more thn me for a hundred thousand miles
I dun dare to promise anything
Seriously.......

A new blog post after a long rest

2011-11-24T08:01:00.000-08:00

2011, is brand new year but is almost getting to end now...
Honestly,i din even achieved any plan tht i aim for this year
In the same time, i felt i started lost myself sumtimes
Im still tht kind of lazy student
Many things waiting for me to get it done
but i still like very relax n always last minutes
My mind will always tell me do it later instead of now
I always thought i will start it tomoro
but tomoro n tomoro
Im still the same
I hate this kind of me
Really
I cant like this le
wake up pls
chance only reserved for those who prepare well enough...

22/10/10

2010-10-22T06:44:00.000-07:00

Really a long time didnt come here write down my stuff le...
Feel so unhappy with my unreasonable mum...
Y, y i got such mum...
Everything oso not happy with me...
Y she doesnt know to change a bit,
Y always im the one who did the wrong things...
Cant she feel it i already dun like to stay at home...
I scare to face her, scare to argue with her...
Thts y i will find a lot of reason to hang out...
I dun like to stay at home..
Dun like to keep arguing with the same prob..
I wish to tell her loudly ,ya ,im dating n im really love him,so what!!!!
But doesnt mean will influence my studies
Y cant she understand me n keep on thinking bad things will happened to me...
Cant she support me abit?
I wish to escape from my home....i wish to move out to stay alone....
Better thn keep on arguing with you everyday...
Im going to get mad soon if continue like tht....

4th of August 2010

2010-08-04T08:28:00.000-07:00

Is been 7 months didn't update my blog already...
Started my new study life in MIA instead of TARC...
Doesn't get into local university as what my parents hopes...
Have to spend 3 more years to do my diploma in music...

No regret with that since i happy with my study life now
because it is much more better than working....
Not easy to work in the society nowadays
People is getting more realistic include me XD

Nothing much to write just i swear i will become another me
after 3 years in MIA...

All The Best!!!!

27th of Jan

2010-01-27T19:00:00.000-08:00

Im having a complicated mood....but doesnt mean tht im unhappy
Dunno y just feel like a bit weird n i dunno how to describe it...
Mentally n physically tired...

I write sumthing wrong i think...dunno whether tht person really care bout it or not...
hope this wun make it think too much...
Maybe i should really think properly bout what i want...
thn only wun suffer in anything....

Things can be tht simple....
Im just hope tht i wun make it become complicated n difficult...
im still who i am..ntg ever change bout this...

This Moment..

2010-01-18T18:29:00.000-08:00

Few weeks didnt update ady leh, my mood just like travelling with roller coaster as well..
Coz sumthing happen with my job, but i think ntg now ady...
Diff ppl diff thinking way, i din angry bout it just hope she will understand my situation
since she want me to do so...
Hope this wun influence us...but im still dunno how to face her leh...

Thn i was quiet worry d leh, ady pain for few days ,din slp well oso...really scare me...
luckily ntg now ar....if not dunno how oso...
But, seems ok with my luck coz happy stuff happen after all of the bad things...

Haha, should be happy always so that no wrinkles ar...XD
Thats all for my post :)

Everything NEW!!!!

2010-01-06T18:58:00.000-08:00

This is my first post in year 2010 but today not first of Jan ..XD
A brand new year for me, i hope everything getting smooth in my life..
I hope im choosing the right or suitable way for my own
no matter for my future or my career..

Today is 8 of Jan , what i've done?
First i dye my hair le, new look :)
And i oso but few of new clothes but not allow to wear it now XD
Thn,the most happy thing i hv is i got a new younger sister..

She is kind of happy type...every1 like to be with her coz she always laugh n smile all the time..
Cant deny that she influence me a lot..
Thx GOD that bring this sister for me, im really appreciate her..
Im maybe not a good elder sis but i tried my best to take care of her..:)
We still hv a long way to go so we must add oil together ya:)

Thn, i have to talk bout my guitar ady...
Recently really not much practice...dunno y like losting my heart or my soul even not with my body...
Gosh....How could it happen?
Still want to have grade exam this yr end...
This Friday will start theory class oso..haiz

Must find bk my spirit la.....
To be continue...

惊,喜的一天

2009-12-11T00:06:00.000-08:00

今年的十二月十日,应该是我毕生难忘的一天,
为什么?因为惊和喜都发生在这一天了..
STPM终于在当天考完了,没有想呐喊的感觉,
反而额外的平静,考完时大家都到处在学院拍照,
作为留念...我当然也是其中之一咯^^,
解脱了啦,唯一不舍的应该就是朋友和老师吧!

过后,我和朋友去了金河一趟,干嘛呢?
当然是我的最爱"唱K"咯...hehe
此时才发觉多位朋友与老师也不约而同的在那碰面了啦!!哈哈
好巧哦!!于是便拍照起来了,真犹如个大家庭.

再来,我得在此祝福我那两位姐妹,希望她们工作顺利...
我会想你们的:)一起为未来加油^^
也得祝贺蚂蚁天使"生日快乐",虽然迟了一天...

而惊呢,则是老爸突然病了起来,外表刚强的他突然变得苍白
我的心突然好怕好怕,诊所几乎都打烊了,
一路驾着小蓝,看着老爸辛苦的表情,我浑身都开始不自觉的颤抖..
妈又扭伤脚,还未痊愈...
第一次这样,顿时觉得自己很脆弱,手忙脚乱的..

爸妈年纪大了,以后或许会有类似问题...
我应该坚强一些, 人老了就会生病, 而我和哥是他们的依靠..
突然觉得自己得学习更多..

悲喜交际间,我收到了一些关怀的信息.
他们虽然帮不上什么,可是至少我的心定下来许多..
谢谢老师你的信息,会慢慢学习里头的道理
谢谢红蚂蚁的祝福还有谢谢我老板娘,在我紧急时,第一个想到的是你..

这一切都过去了,新的一年要来临了,
我要乘这段时间去完成许多未完成或开始的计划...
时间,我会把握你的!!!

哭了

2009-11-28T08:30:00.000-08:00

终于忍不住,一再的哭了...
很痛很痛,讨厌这种感觉...
不喜欢这样的自己...
决定了就不要犹豫...
我要走出这种痛苦...
我不要这种感觉,
我不要!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
很累,惨,悲...
快窒息了!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

无题

2009-11-21T08:10:00.000-08:00

很就没来这儿写东西了,近来都在考试..
感觉蛮复杂的却不懂要如何去表达..
现在脑里是空白的,总觉得考试时间过得特别慢长,
好迫切哦...父母都对自己期望很高,
好压力也不想你们失望,
我会尽力的..不管怎样...
最近会碰到自己无能为力的事,很担心却分担不了..
而我发觉最近自己变贪心了,我要的也越来越多..
一分一秒也不想错过,喜欢呆在那儿的感觉...
感觉很平静...
好久没看星了,好怀念星空的画面..
朋友的猫咪前几天不在了,突然对那感触起来...
或许那对它是解脱,脱离疾病的痛苦..
可是它带给我朋友很多他不会遗忘的回忆
我会为你祈祷的小猫 :)
有很多事情我应该都知道结果但是却不死心..
而且不想去理清,因为我害怕失去的滋味...
这种忐忑不安的心情不懂会持续多久?
或许我很傻可是我没办法违背自己的心..
我会珍惜的,在我还未放弃之前...

心,乐

2009-11-05T22:21:00.000-08:00

我知道我的未来不是梦,我认真的过每一分钟..
这是首耳熟能详的歌曲你陪我走过了各种时候
总是有刹那间的冲动去写下对那片刻的感动
我还是我但不是那停滞不前的我
对你的执着称不上有多至死不愉
唯能确定的是在这三岔路口
我走出了拘束不在是那温室里的花
仙人掌是我的代名词
天真才会带来或创造奇迹
这是它让我坚信的事实
也是它的魅力所在
不管披荆斩棘,我选择了它
我的未来不是梦,因为它离我越来越近
明天还有明天,惟有珍惜我们拥有的每一天
悠然自得也是对一天的一种珍惜
绝望和放弃才是真正的败者
为了它,可以不再动摇..:)
只有一直往前走, 这是为什么人的五官都长在前方和两侧而不是背后
我的未来不是梦..我的心跟着希望在动
跟着梦想在走.....XD

Hate

2009-10-29T20:34:00.000-07:00

I know i m the 1 let u feel most disappointed for this moment..
I really dunno wat to say oso
Dun be too highly expected on me...
even though u say u wun giv stress on me...

I admit tht im not doing my best...im trying to do tht
u r the 1 tht most love me n so sorry tht im hurt u on this time..
But can u pls leave me alone...no matter good or bad...
Thats the way im choose...

STPM doesnt as easy as im think....
didnt say im regret to choose bout it...but i hope u know tht is not easy to make a pass..
i cant promise to get flying result in it..but i will try to pass it at least...
in the same time, i hope u let me going through my goal oso...
i need to train my guitar n vocal...

twenties is coming...no more teenager...
time is very important for me now....
sorry to let u feel shame bout d result i got...
im started to hate myself..
hate myself to make u all frustrated

so pls leave me alone n dun bother me anymore.....

伴随你

2009-10-17T10:52:00.000-07:00

现在是凌晨一点多了,我还没睡咧!!很累可是却不想去睡...
看了一个朋友以前的blog,写了好多哦..密密麻麻的字,
也从中了解更多,我发誓我会对你这朋友一辈子的好!!
我们认识不久可是我们之间会走得更遥远,
你撇不开了..哈哈...开心与否,我都会陪伴着你...

抱歉啦,我没早睡反而去看你写的东西..哈哈
我会很努力的当你第一个知心朋友..
所以你一定要相信我哦!! ^^

我要考STPM了咧,可是我还没有那种紧张的心,
反而天天抱吉他,真是的!!
我应该知道要怎样选择了..哈哈

我不懂你曾看过我写的东西吗?
可是就是想写在这里, 要努力哦!!希望还是存在的,
未来没有人知道,可是确定的是我们会发掘彼此更多..
很庆幸可以认识你的执着,毅力和善良,谢谢你

一起为梦想打拼吧,朋友!!

发霉了咧==

2009-09-23T02:03:00.000-07:00

开斋节假期, 玩的去玩了..我却哪儿都不能去..
考试咯,还是预考咧,几重要...XD
可是却没有很积极咧...

还天天上网,FB 和玩game...够力咯^^
真的要等死吗? 不能这样了咧....

人活在世上,还有很多事情我还没做的..
我生活都很随性而且过于懒散...

不能了,是时候做该做的事...
我要好好的利用剩余的时间...
我要找回以前的我..
我就是我!!!!!!!!!

惊讶

2009-09-20T07:41:00.000-07:00

这星期里,脾气不怎么好,也不怎么说话,尤其是在家...
想了很久, 我都懂他们所说的,只是我觉得我根本不能兼顾那么多..
我也不想说话那么冲,只是你们都这么想了,我还能说些什么呢?

我不爱解释...唯有保持沉默...
我会照着原有计划去走...
只是我不想承诺什么...

令我惊讶的是,你说你有看到我写的东西..
我并没想过这点...
我没有很会念书也不想给人这种想法..
只想做我想做的事...

我不懂这是否对或错?
我只知道如果我不去把握我一定会后悔..
你可以很理智,但我不能..
我承认我很任性...
可是就只让我任性那么一次可以吗?

我不想再讨论这事情了..
你们要我完成它..我就完成它...
很累...
让我选择自己的未来...

心情

2009-09-11T08:58:00.000-07:00

其实已经有了心理准备, 今天是最后一天在那儿了...
感觉好怪哦,不懂怎样形容...伤心又不是..哈哈
今天好拼哦.就像跟时间赛跑,把一些该做的都做了..

但如果老师不在,还想把那工作完成...可惜都不是我锁门了..
是时候了,投入自己的生活...XD
虽然没有在那儿待很久...
可是我应该不会忘记你教我的东西..谢谢:)

其余的,我还蛮迷惘的...
好多东西得思考...
不是小孩了,
该自己为自己所做的负责...

我会加油的!!!

他与她

2009-09-09T01:50:00.000-07:00

从认识到熟悉,算起来不到几个月..
他与她感觉已经不陌生, 什么都聊..
她珍惜他, 而他也很感激她..
这些她都知道...

其实,她也不知道自己在干嘛的..
她曾想过与他之间保持距离,
可是却没办法做到..
她希望他快乐..
她只想陪伴在他身边..

剩下的时间不多,她会尝试遗忘..
她并没有被他伤害..
他很善良, 他担心她..

可是他的失落却让她内疚..
她开始讨厌现在的她..
她也不懂该说什么..

她不想去理清什么的,
也没要他决择..
只想维持现状...

Future

2009-09-04T09:38:00.000-07:00

Is time to decide which course im going to take after STPM,
Actually, i ady know that what im going to take before taking STPM..
But, human being with d complicated thinking ..
So, our thinking will change time to time..

I was kinded of stress with my study now...
lazy minded n brain to absorb wat im study now..
left 2 months for the real exam..

But, my mind like blank at all...
Dunno wat Bio lecture is teaching bout..
Maths oso fail, chemistry oso like tat..
PA more worse ,if need to sketch d graph for it sure get very scary result..

Im going to take the difficult road but isnt mean tht im very innocent?
But if we dun hv such of big dream how we going to achieve d success?
After my teacher talk to me, i was getting no confidence n hesitate now..

Many things to do n my time just like not enough..
Maybe of bad time management..ya..i admit tht==
very confuse to think that so better concentrate on my study n guitar first..
Ntg important thn tht..

I can do that d ...as long as i sacrufy my sleeping time n daydreaming time..XD

瓶子里的我

2009-08-23T01:10:00.000-07:00

A night 终于结束了啦!!! 大家都蛮怀念的,
一旦说起就滔滔不绝,可是我却没这样的感觉..
因为其实我也没怎么帮到他们,但却感受的到他们对那份成功的喜悦.. 加油吧!!

已经接近八月尾, 是时候奋斗了啦!! 至于工作方面我也没想太多了啦!!
只是希望能做多少就做多少咯...哈哈
有些事情是很难有言语来表达的..
因为说了觉得自己蛮...ahem..==

可是真的很感激老师和她, 薪金虽然不是很高,但人情味补足
也算是份优差在那儿认识了不少可爱的老师,
他们各个都多才多艺,让我叹为观止..因为我有这么厉害就好咯..
很高兴能到那儿学习啊..也认识了他这个好朋友,
相信他总有一天会实现自己的梦想 , 要加油哦!! 祝福你^^

放假了咯,也算是我开始闭关的开始, 是时候为自己拼了,
从某人身上我看到了对理想的执着与冲劲...
而我也是时候从瓶子中走出来遥望这世界了...

沮丧的感觉

2009-08-08T07:28:00.000-07:00

不知不觉, 在那工作已经有一个月多了, 这算是我最满意的一份工作...
可是现实归现实啊,很快的我就不会属于那儿的一份子了..
他们说的对,毕竟我还是学生,我有我的路要走,他们不能对我要求什么..

我如果因为考试而请假是理所当然的, 所以我也说不出任何理由要他们等我回来
这是早就知道的事, 可是为什么今天他们在问是否有人要做我这份工作的时候,
我的感觉就像由天堂跌到谷底...好心酸的感觉..也伪装不出来了...

这个地方让我学习了不少人与人沟通的方法, 也学会去接受别人的意见虽然有时侯还蛮怕她说有事要跟我分享, 因为我以为我又做错事了啦..哈哈
可是, 都知道那是一种过程, 也感激你们对我的包容..

我知道我自己承诺不了什么,可是我真的不想那么快离职咧..
虽然还没考预试和STPM,可是怎么说呢? 在那工作是我原动力之一,
为了证明和让父母相信我可以兼顾.. 至少现在我父母都一致同意我在那儿工作了..
这种感觉好满足哦,而且每天都是开心的
可是不知道还能维持多久...
唯有珍惜吧!! ^^

Be4 Brother's Birthday^^

2009-08-07T07:43:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday, after finish work asking sum1 accompany me
For what? my dearest brother d big day loh...
And also my sis Christine Birthday..haha

I bought a pair of couple key chain to my brother
So that i can seek for his gf is who loh..hehe so clever right?
After that , i accompany sum1 go makan loh

i eat oso lah n started to do sumthing stupid..hehe
guess what i did??

Result showns as below :

Reflection of Light

Passion Fruits

Haha..my drinks for that night ^^

Thx that fellow oso la being my driver..T.T and paiseh leh let u eat dinner become ur supper
Thx a lot !!! ^^

新照片哦!!^^

2009-08-06T07:14:00.000-07:00

LOL最近爱上拍照了咧, 不过都只拍身边的人或事物
没自拍咯, 哈哈,总觉得自己拍照很"ginger"哈哈
真的是什么都拍..我老婆也快受不了我了啦!!

哈哈, 好敷衍的笑容, 是啦! 知道你是被逼的...hehe

哈哈,很不自然咧,一直要你拍照,不过还蛮可爱的^^

穿那么漂亮却只让我拍侧脸,T.T haiz....

以下是我乱拍一通的东东...哈哈


Toshiba Dophin滑鼠... different perspective XD

Mi Hun Sup :p Roti canai O.O

Nasi Goreng Kampung "langsung tak mau pedas" wakaka

Start Of A Day Tree wif Light ..nice feel leh!!!

Be4 the photoshooting of A nite P&M Department ,

So yeng leh!! Adrian XD..Shh!!Chrysler doing big business beside

Sophia, My first wife..but im not her first husband T.T

Eunice & Adrian (quite match d XD!!) hehe

2 lovely gals :) Abby & Cally

Proton Trip ( Scotty version)

Photographer : Jacqueline Theme : Scotty with the sky

btwn Scotty still got Ruth!! Amazing leh Flash at Proton toilet..wakaka

Proton with scotty ^^

Jacky, Sophia & Scotty (J.S.S) but wait..who's d fellow behind?? XD

Proton Trip ( Part 2) :

My dear n Melissa ^^

hehe ...peace XD

sport complex at proton..huge leh!!!!!!

First Proton Exora..The code is 0000....d leh

Explanation bout proton factory

Some photo bout the process of making a proton car

nice deco flower XD

My instructor for that day :)

The driver place at left d leh...i mean d steering site...

lastly of the trip..!!!

3 of us....frenz 4eva XD

生活点滴^^

2009-08-03T01:20:00.000-07:00

迈入八月份了,我这幅死脑筋还是装不下读过的东西
果然是白读, 整个人好像什么都不是这样...
真是悲哀...

最近让我生活过得比较充实和开心的应该是到 Let's Music工作吧!
喜欢那边的环境, 因为周围都是一把把闪耀的吉他..hehe
此外,当然少不了钢琴, 电子琴, 鼓, 电吉他, 小提琴等乐器

还有, 老板和老板娘真的好可爱哦!!哈哈,我想他们应该不想我用可爱来形容他们吧!
那儿的老师都很友善,甚至都蛮幽默风趣的, 愈来愈喜欢待在那儿了啦!
至于我的吉他学得怎么样?马马虎虎咯...老师,抱歉哦, 不会偷懒了啦..^^

有时候觉得身为一名中六生,日子还真的蛮累的,
仿佛一刻的松懈就等于隔离了好几万里远似的
坦白而言,很想就此放弃, 但却不甘心...好矛盾哦!

其实小丑的定义是什么呢?为什么身边的朋友总觉得我在硬撑和压抑自己呢?
我不想当小丑咧,只想当你们眼中的开心果,把好的心情和快乐带给大家...
有些话虽然很土, 但我只是想说,我选择了开心去过每一天^^

What to do?

2009-07-29T06:45:00.000-07:00

OMG, STPM is coming..
I really dunno what to do leh,
Today, Maths T1 teacher say got extra class..
But, he just trying to giving a short talk to us..

He want us to figure out d goal..
And include the important or urgent things to us..
What he tell us, i think since i choose this way..
I already realize that just i cant do that yet

I know want to let go something since we cant possess everything..
Besides that, papa ask me bout my study oso
I feel very guilty leh...

Really have a bad feeling now...
Can i dun think bout that ar?
Is definitely a stress to me...
Guitar? Study? Society?

Confusing...
I need some space!!!!

Dear Readers

2009-07-23T22:24:00.000-07:00

Haha, actually ntg much to write leh...
Just because im using my fren d laptop now
So , just simply want to write it here

First time using other ppl laptop to update my blog
Summore, now is their PA (D&E) classes...
Haha, n im sit at the first row leh
Teacher teaching in front im blogging in front of her XD

Yesterday , me , vicky (my dear) n melissa going for proton trip
We are visited d branch at tanjung malim,Perak
Have a fun trip there actually n take lot of photo oso

D only bad things is i cant updated d photo yet due to some technical problem
So dear all the readers, be patient ya.. will updated it asap
wait lah....hahaha

From :
Cindy :)

My Blog

2009-07-19T02:30:00.000-07:00

After vist to some of my frens d blog..
I'm discover that my blog really sienz...
Huh...Malaysia English again
So, what to do? Ta..dang..new look of my blog :)

Boh bian ,tats me ..haha
My MUET get 4 leh!!!
I actually quite satisfy d
But hor...after saw scholar student..ehem
4 only mah...what to happy? C2p

Lot of things happen leh...
But one thing doesnt change is im still alive..
haha...congratz..clapping hand for my own XD

Would like to update some photo and song here that i like recently..hehe

Song that i hear frequently

Haha Adam Lambert Vs Kris Allen which version u guys prefer?

Instrument that i like>>>

Accoustic guitar...forget how much ady? but can call for price...><

Another classical guitar>>>

2008 Traphagen Classical-35th Ann model

quite blank d but i like d design n colour

Haha will be updated more ...under processing

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Sin Yee

You ? Me ?

2009-07-03T07:09:00.000-07:00

Hmm..actually dunno how to write
Even though i got lot of things to tell

Firstly, im started my part time work life this week..
Not really busy os n a bit bored...
But at least can force myself study there...
Tats good for me...

Second was bout me n sum1...
Sumthing come too fast n even myself oso cant imagine it
So,cant blame him oso...
Im keep blaming on myself actually...

Know not suppose to be like that but still do that..
Dont like this kind of me...
Thx oso coz being so honest n cruel to me..

Thn only i will alert myself...
Anyway im not the kind that like to use my brain ..
so, i dun want think it anymore lah just let it be lah...
I dunno whether u saw this or not...
But Still want to write it..haha

Written by,
Sin Yee

26th June 2009

2009-06-26T09:17:00.000-07:00

Freaking long time din update my blog ady...
suddenly got d ohm to update it..coz want let sum1 saw it mah..
Many things happen since time going through..

First was Im reject going for d national state competition..
Second, is my bio experiment for science exhibition..
Feel sorry to my junior oso...coz they abundant by me...

Then, is A nite stuff...
Ticket selling not tht good reaction as wat we think...
Wat to do? Dunno yet...maybe will dream d solution...XD

Furthermore, Im feel im choose d correct pathway...
A nite is taking lot of risk but we dare to accept it...
Know lot of new n silly fren just because of this events...
Summore got 1 younger brother ady...

Although facing lot of prob,still we will continue it..
We r new to learn all d stuff from d problem tht we face..
Cheer up ya..A nite committee!!!

i'll do sumthing first time for today...
Not success n get rejected...
But as what my fren say make everythings clear n straight forward better thn suffer...
Sad or feel nothing? I dunno oso..
But at least i did wat should i did ady..
No regret!!!

Tomoro will be go for interview dunno whether ok or not leh..hahaXD

updated with half close eyes,
Sin Yee

Different

2009-06-12T06:50:00.000-07:00

Actually im having holiday
But , im still going to college :(
Busy with appreciation night, els and so on..
Books?
Hehe, ashamed to mention about this word
Because i didn't open it at all

Although was busy, im happy that i know a lot of new friends
Ehem.. i mean consider new for me lah..XD
They are Abby, Cally, Adrian,Samantha and Nicole,
Of coz including our "freaking leader" lah..
You guys know who right?wakaka

The things supposing me to happy was,
Today i met him at college
Not strongly have tat kind of stupid feel already..
I think my mind really bk to my own already..
Yuhoo!!!Clap hands for my own...

Is not that easy to do that but at least im successfully step out d first step
Back to the topic..I mean A night..
Because of this, i knew them and they was kind n funny..
We hang out to time square together..
( failure in our movie plan)
But at least we heard d new pronunciation for "cucumber"
Hahaha

In the other ways, something goes into my mind..
Life just like a dealer n d gambler
You need to pay something if you want to gain something..
So,there was no free lunch in this world
We need sacrified something instead of getting something..
Haha..a lot of something something...==

Im choose already thats y im sacrified my study time...
I don't konw is that worth or not...
Even don't want think it also...
Just do what i want to do...
That simple for me...

updated seriously by
Cindy

First Day For Holiday

2009-05-30T07:05:00.000-07:00

Long time din update ady,hehe...
Was busy with lot of stuff this few weeks..
Firstly want to say thanks to those who greet me n my groupmates..

Second, i was very happy coz incidently i have form my new committee
for els spus division..haha,stay cool ya!!
Then,want to thx my fren coz she was d 1 who visit my blog

I will continue to write it as long as im free to update tho..
Im feel satisfy with my life now coz a lot of ppl accompany us..
Besides that, i ady can get through d sad feel ady..

Now,everything was ok for me...
Just need to really concentrate in my study...
However,im started my holiday but equal as no holiday only..
Haha, lot of stuff to do ar...

By the way,im enjoy with tht..haha
Happy Holiday to all my frens..hehe

updated by,
Cindy

Memorable day^^

2009-05-22T10:52:00.000-07:00

Today, actually not today only is d whole week..
Busy for d pengisahan competition stuff..
Keep changing script...
All things memories only at today...

Last minutes at all...
Exhausted n we all was trying to pull out...
No confidents oso...

But getting d unexpected result...
First things i wanna do was thx for all my pretty group mate...
My dearest teacher, Miss Jacqueline...Hehe
Other group member

Thx for their supporting...
We all are the best ady...
Glad to meet u guys in this competition...

Many first time i did for this competition..
First time wear punjabi n sari...
Can become indian ady...wakaka

Thx for all u guys supporting n those sms
Really feel warm!!!

Updated by,
Sin Yee

18th May 2009

2009-05-18T00:27:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to Deborah...hehe^^
still can rmb today is ur big day..keke
totally exhausted tis few week...
coz of d competition...

Cant do well in my acting...
Was so stress bout tht..
This friday will be d final ady...

Just hope to try my best..
Nothing more..
Yesterday was chat wif my best fren..
hmm..keep on giving advice to me..
but im just feel breathless that time..

So, trying to change topic...
I know she concern bout me..
But d problem is myself cant get through it..

I know i din hv much time but still like that..
I dun wan to keep on suffering..
N i was finding a way to get out from d boxes..

No1 can help but only myself..
I wish i can do it...
really...

updated in CIT by,
Sin Yee

13th May 2009

2009-05-13T06:51:00.000-07:00

New sem started, im d senior now...
Imagine how old am i?
No mood to study today...

Whole day very sienz...
Dunno y...
haha..not feeling well somemore..

Make a decision tht i havent make be4...
haha...maybe just becoz of trust...

Try to walk for my first step
Hope i can go through it more n more..
and dun even to suffer bout tht anymore...

Is difficult...but still need to do tht...
For my own n future..
Life is not bed of roses...

Haha...add oil ya!!!
Impossible is ntg !!!^^

9th of May 2009

2009-05-09T06:31:00.000-07:00

Start from 10am, reach my fren house...
chit chatting with her for awhile..
Then, she started teach me how to bake a butter cake...
Such as measure d ingredients n way to mix it together..

After all procedure finish , put it into d oven n wait for 45 minutes...
Tada....my cake cum out ady...em..not tht success..
But, my fren's mum n dad taste it n almost finish half of d cake..
Because they say d cake taste nice just d appearance not tht good

Thn , still hv time n it was for Mother's day present so plan to do again..
Go to grab d ingredients with my fren...
start all d procedure again n wait for another 45 minutes...

Thn, my fren teach me other desert which make by sagu...
It is easy..so mk it while waiting for d cake..><
Finally finish all of this...

Thn rush to my rehearsal for d pertandingan pengisahan...
Tat time was ady 4 sumthing....
After finish all of this ..drive home n it was almost 7pm...

Almost no voice ady coz of flu n sore throat...
My mother seems like dosnt like d suprise i giv her...
keep complaining im wasting money n time...

And oso sounds like dun like d cake...
a bit sad...
coz i really try my best for my first time...

but luckily she still eat it...
my father like it oso...
my brother too...eat for a big slice

tomoro is d saringan ady...
very afraid bout tht...
since all was very last minutes...

But i believe in miracle
so, all d best to me n my dear frens...
gambateh :)

Updated tiredly by,
Sin Yee

3rd Of May

2009-05-03T05:22:00.000-07:00

Msn with fren until 2 sumthing am...
Have mk a decision
Was not very sure but i know i sure do that...

But she feel im not true to myself..
Just wanna say tht i ady cant define wat is true n fake ady...
Is same for me...

At noon, hv watch a conservation bout an artist...
realize tht she can think in diff perspective..
she willing to accept the outcome bout wat she done..
without know that this is rite or wrong...

She wun regret bout that even ady tk her for 23 yrs..
I was so admire her braveness...
Life is not that straight but she really live for her life..

She knows a lot because she go through a lot..
Compare with my age...she need care more things th me...
As she say, we r not belongs to any1 even though ur parents..

They just part of u n responsible to tk care of u ..
until u become adult...
Tht is still ur own way to go...
still need to choose by ur own but no other...

I definitely agree wat she said...
n i was not sure d conservation giv me wat affect
but im sure it makes me think deep n wide...

Sumtimes things come with timing..
n I believe tht this maybe the hints tht give by God
I dunno is real or not?
But i just know tht it makes me feel more real...

Thanks God!!!!^^(even though im not christian or else)

Labour Day

2009-05-01T07:30:00.000-07:00

Happy Labour Day
To all my fren who r working...
especially my dear bro...
hehe...he seem so happy to have holiday coz no need to work..

Ntg special for me coz still need do homework
Sum1 tell me that i should know my way to go..
She believe in me but how bout myself

I dunno whether i should do that or not?
maybe after that i really need to put down him le
really dun have that braveness
scare dun hv the reason to continue..

ur image become blur in my heart le
how could be like that...
it seems so near but actually so far..

very afraid
sum1 lead me a way to go...

where r u?
u still there?

C.O.N.F.U.S.E?

2009-04-29T05:49:00.000-07:00

Recently, lot of frens share their own prob with me..
Automatically i will share with them a lot...
But, now is like not much to tell them
why? because every1 having different situation..
So is better be their listener..

For me, honestly im oso hv d confuse time..
Who is me..
What im actually is?
What i want?
Why i cant mix with them?
Why why why....

Keep thinking of it since long long time ago..
But who knows,maybe d solution is in front of you or hiding you..
maybe d next day u r not in this world anymore
im just know now wat im doing..

So, always ask urself...if now left 1 minute..
What will u do?
Still confuse? I think no time for u to do that...
So y dun just dun think too much but hold on this moment

As long as we wont regret that is better enough..
Sumthing just like a watermelon..
When u throw it...it will sink n few minutes or hour it will float on the surface..

This mean time will help decide such things that din hv solution
Or things that d "hak" of decision is not belongs to you..

So,my dear frens enjoy ur life ya...
Coz life is only once n u r d unique n cant be replace by any1

cheer up by,
Sin Yee

Special for u

2009-04-25T08:09:00.000-07:00

Finish my MUET exam today...
Results is..maximum i think can get band 3 only..
Haiz..lets talk bout other...

hey, u know im writting it for u rite?
be tough ya...u r strong n self dicipline enough since d first day i know u..
maybe we r not tat close anymore since different study place now..

but, dun 4get i wil always be there for u...
so anything must share with me...
especially when u need a shoulder..

thx for ur encouragement n actually n need a lot of braveness
to let u know bout tht...i mean him...
coz not much ppl know bout tht

times can heal everything n i wish i wun waste too much of time to put him down
haha..u too..im very xin tong to c u feel hurt to tht fellow..
dun feel tht is a pain but is a gain ya..

all the best ya...my old fren...hehe

concerning by:
ur old fren

Dear Burfday ( 24th of April 2009)

2009-04-24T02:53:00.000-07:00

Such a few weeks din updated my blog ady..
Hmm...today is my "2nd wife" vicky's bday..
Handmake sumthing to her as a present..
Treat her for kfc oso..hehe coz long time din eat le..almost 3 yrs i think..

tommoro we r all having MUET exam..
nervous coz i need at least Band 4
but with my weak sentences making n poor grammar using..i think abit danger ...
still need to fight till d last minutes lah..

2nd things is i skip for my chemistry lecture today..feel guilty leh..sob T.T
Thn, is like feel ntg much to talk wif my class gang..dunno y...
Besides tht, i still choose to continue tht way...even though is just wait..
coz still believe in miracle...

Talk bout aim for wat universities with my classmates..
Realize that is quite difficult oso n depends on sum luck..
but do this actually motivate me?

In additions, i get my mid term results...first time fail..
summore is 2 subject..
really failed leh...unbelievable..haha
is that consider normal to hv such first time?

hmm..dunno wat to write ady...
tats all n gotto study MUET ...

updated by,
Sin Yee

15th of April 2009

2009-04-15T07:56:00.000-07:00

Hmm...actually dunno wat to write for today..
But, just feel that want to write sumthing else here..
D feel so complicated...haha

Disect my second rat today..
A fat female rat...blood come outs ady..
So cruel...luckily doraemon help me today..thx ya..

I want to left my mind n brain in blank...
dun wan to bother n think anything..
just want to be myself...
and stop thinking for other ppl..

Is it difficult?
mentally tired...I wish to have some way to release my stress
any way as it is work to me

still have a lot of things havent do..

1. maths tutorial havent finish..
2. chemistry tutorial n revision havent done oso
3. biology din touch it at all
4. PA din study at all too
5. script for pertandingan pengisahan havent write
6.MUET exam coming
7.Guitar skill not yet pro
8.need to train my squash skill too...

lazy me..
Sin Yee

11st of April 2009

2009-04-11T01:19:00.000-07:00

Suddenly, think bout d reason y im having tis blog...
I think this is d only way for me to write or say out sumthing that
I doesnt dare to speak out or say to the other..

Is not say that i dun hv fren to share with me but they have their prob to solve oso..
So, is better to write here especially d things that is ady happen but i dunno solution..

First, am i still care him? definitely yes...
Gosh, tis make me more tired...
I cant use any words to describe d feeling to him but i know im still stubborn on him

"I cant do or say nothing because he was he and i was i"
a lot of things to tell him but mind become blank when saw him..
pretend that he is not in my mind but still will observe him ..

we r fren but actually we doent looks like fren at all..
am i wrong to let him know bout that?
i guess not but im regret to tell him...
not becoz i dun feel like tat anymore but just want to be like fren as be4
i wish i hv tat braveness to talk to u..
but actually i know i dun have..

Xin ying call me today,wat a suprised call..
glad to listen to her..hope she will come to kl soon..
thanx for her encouragement oso...

Tat day hv view a book which the title is journey to the hell
inside there written that if sum1 talk bout d bad of the other
will get the punishment when u die n go to the hell

I was thinking actually what is good and bad?
Is that becoz of afraid getting punishment so u din do the bad things or say sumthing bad..
but actually u dun really think like what u did?

There is only one step between heaven and hell
But is that really important yo us?
We wont even know where we will go through after we death..
So, just appreciate now and this moment that we still alive..

Time flies, gonna finish my f6 life soon n STPM is coming..
havent prepare at all even though teacher keep persuade us to study..
I din have high expectation but just hope can go through the universities i choose..
That was enough for me already..

9s2b tis class really give me a lot of feeling n memories that i doent hv it during my secondary school..
although we r not the best, i like this class rather than other..
glad to have all of them such as ruru, 1 cent, swen, mimi, kylie n pei ee n oso kausaliya
sumtimes i admit that i din hv much topic to talk with them
but at least they still act me as a part of them..
just i still very poor in my communication skill

during 38 time i can be really 38...but if want chat with me i will be very boring..
dunno y?== i really nothing can say loh is like only some nonsense,gossip or study thing only..
ntg more besides of that...really like to daydream even though lecture time..
really cant cure this sickness loh..
Some1 have d way to solve it ar?

updated by,
Sin Yee

Recently

2009-04-09T02:35:00.000-07:00

6th of April 2009, our class 9s2b was going to happy 4 season restaurant

for taking our class photo that use for class magazine...

Quite cooperate oso coz 16 out of 19 are going on that day..

Me as usual din tk so much photo oso coz doesnt like to take photo..haha

Get all of my exam result...almost all fail..sad...n feel like no motivation at all..

how?confused for my future now, but just hope to be blur everyday..

Feel exhausted...everyday bk home in late time just because dun wan to stay at home..

y? hmm...i think i just dun wan to heard mumbling from my mum...n..emm...

I dun wan have arguement with her...so every day like finding reason to bk home lately..

In the same time...tis week i hv ady done my first part of disection of rat...

To observed the down part organ of rats, it still very smelly...

even I wear d mask and glove while doing disection..

Ya, i know is very cruel but no choice coz im taking bio n tis is a part of syllabus..

What i can sure is im respecting d rat n i appreciate it to let me know more of its organ...

May God bless u in peace..

Need to study my MUET exam ady...tats all for this week..^^

Here are some photo for disecting d rat...hehe

4th of April 2009

2009-04-04T08:51:00.000-07:00

Today after chemistry class, me n my classmate going to sunway pyramid..
First time going out with them...really...tats y feel very happy to hv tis chance..

We going there by taking lrt thn change KTM..hehe
In additions , tis is my first time taking KTM lo...
feel like floating on the boat...haha

Than, we go there by taking the mini bus which consider a horrible bus...
Coz the bus taking d amount of passenger is more than d limit...
Somemore, he din close d door...
Imagine that if he suddenly break..will d passenger fly out from d car?

Finally, we reach there ady..that place change a lot...
Lot of shop oso n the item oso quite expensive ...
bought a chocolate n an item...

Some of my fren oso hv bought some item...
But, it represent we need to save money start from next week..
Coz my wallet ady certified..haha
No cure..T.T

But, overall is a very happy trip today...
Thx for ur guys ya!!!

1st Of April

2009-04-01T02:09:00.000-07:00

Hurray!!! Done all my biology project n getting d marks ady...
Finally, no need worry anymore...haha

Just because of rushing those project ..makes me cant come here to update..
haha now is like put down a heavy stone ady....phew...

Yesterday get back my PA karangan test paper...
Thought can get d good marks...
Unfortunately, hv some technical problem which is i write too much for 1 essay..
Too many point ady n too much word ady...
1 essay for around 800++ words...

This let me get d low marks for my karangan...
hurt...n the result will be post to my home..
how? I oso dunno...just wait for the punishment..

Anyway, today is april fool n lucky is that i havent kena play yet..
wakaka...n today oso my colleague d birthday who name Shu Zhen..
Happy Birthday to her!!!

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Sin Yee

28th of March 2008

2009-03-28T10:04:00.000-07:00

Today, as we all know is 60 earth hours day..
We are demanded to switch off our light for 1 hour..
I do that too even i doesnt apply for that activity..

Started training back my guitar..but just like a bit "tak biasa"
maybe is long time din play le...finger quite pain oso..
I think i should be more patient to train back d skill..

Anyone have interest to learn music?
Here have a pathway to you guys..
My teacher had been openend a music school
That place have provided lot of music courses such as,
- guitar
-drum
-vocal/singer
-performer training
-flute
-piano
-digital piano
-children singing
and so on...(cant rmb) ady...><

P/S : anyone who interested can leave a msg to me for further information

Written by,
Sin Yee

Karaoke Day ^^

2009-03-27T09:18:00.000-07:00

Woohoo..finish my mid term ady today..
But my maths t 1 die ady leh...lot dunno how to do..:(

After finish sure i will go for relax lah..
This is the must for me...hehe
Guess where im go?
My favourite place...
Can sing, eat n crazy...

Sing lot of songs today....
now sounds like auntie ady...hahaha
enjoying with Vicky...wakaka

Than, go to find my guitar teacher to buy tuner from him..
hehe...finally got my tuner ady...excited!!!
C d decoration of his music school too..quite big leh n quite expensive for the decoration..

Can heard that my guitar waiting for me ady...haha

Written happily by,

Sin Yee

25th Of March 2009

2009-03-25T01:44:00.000-07:00

Early in the morning, finish my MUET writing exam ady..
After that, rushing back home to continue my revision for tomorrow..

Chemistry...em..a quite familiar subject for me..
but, doesnt like the memorise part...haha
lazy to read those principle and law...
calculation will be better for me..hehe

Than, is a topic regarding my friend...
she very confuse with a lot of things also..
When she tell me bout that, i will persuade her not to think too much..
How bout myself?
I think i have the same condition with her but i oso dunno wat to do..
So, Im choose to let it be...

I think if no use to think too much than we no need to think bout that anymore..
Life still have to go on...
The earth still moving...
So, just have to appreciate for now and look forward to our future...
I think it will be better to think of our pass and memories....

Written in free style by,
Sin Yee

Lazy Day

2009-03-23T23:21:00.000-07:00

Today, did not go for the exam...
But, visit to other place which every1 does not hope to go..
That is clinic...

Ya,my old sickness came back visit me ady...
The doctor just say few words..somemore is the things i know too...
Than charge me for RM90 ady...
So expensive....Imagine that gonna work how many hour?
Only can earn back that amount of money...
Cant eat spicy food ady....sobT.T

Boring lah..coz being at that clinic for 3 hours sumthing...
Than only my turn but just for 15 minutes...haha
On the other hands ..feel happy lah coz first time fetch mother go clinic together with me...
She also check about her hand after the doctor finish check up for me...
Luckily is just cause by bacteria but not any serious stuff...

So, the total spending for today is RM134 for all the medicine and medical check up
Is time gong to take my medicine and study chemistry le..hehe

updated by,
Sin Yee

23rd of March 2009

2009-03-23T02:49:00.000-07:00

Finish my first day mid term exam...
MUET listening and PA,
The worse part for me is listening for the conversation,
so really dunno wat i answer for today...haha

Second, is my PA...3 hour leh...i thought sure enough time for me finish d question,
Unluckily...last five question i use d "tiang" way getting d answer...
wait die ady lah...No A for this time ady i think...T.T

In addition, my old sickness come bk find me ady....very pain lah...
now like become more serious ady and bleeding somemore..
bored to see those condition....dunno whether is too stress for d exam or wat...

Tomorow,more worse...bio n maths paper 2....havent prepared at all...
How to sit for d exam?
I oso dunno...just know very pain now...T.T

To be continue...

Sin Yee

Back to College T.T

2009-03-22T08:14:00.000-07:00

Finally, is my last day for 1 week holidayT.T..sob
Em...actually din do much thing in this holiday oso..haha

First, can consider no study at all..
Second, rushing whole book of ecology project..
Third, go to college doing gym with my fren n hv find my maths t 1 teacher oso..hehe
For what? teaching me maths loh...
But, the problem is ...im still not so clear about that...how?haha

Than...is busy for my mum d things ady...
Her hand was totally allergic to the detergent...but still want do housework..
even though i want help her but she still want to do by herself...
a lot of wound...n my heart very pain when saw it..
So, wat can i do is just help her put medicine n remind her to wear glove...
Hope she will recover as soon as possible, coz im sure every 1 dun like to saw their family member to get sick...

This time is d last time for me to be lazy...
I swear that next time exam i wun be like this time anymore..haha^^
Today is my chemistry lecturer birthday oso...hehe
Wish him Happy Birthday at here lu...
Lastly, wish my fren all gud luck in tomoro d exam lu..

Thats all for today n gonna having my last minutes study...
I know is useless but at least my heart will not feel guilty lah...wakaka^^

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Sin Yee

21st of March 2009

2009-03-20T21:54:00.000-07:00

Decided to write a new blog, because last time always write blog in messy way only...
Time flies, my 1 week holidays gonna end up already...sobT.T

Actually lot of things happened in this week, know some bad news from my friend..
Is that every relationship will be ended up easily?
After that, both of them will just be stranger but not friend anymore?

Single life better?
Couple life more sweet?
I really dunno about that...I'm just know that im not that tough as u guys think..
Maybe i give u guys d tough image but it depends in wat things...

My mind is very confuse recently...
First is because that my time management very "kelam kabut"
Second is the things that happen around me...
Third is that im still care about him, everything such as his future,his studies n lots...
even though know tht he doesnt have feel to me...

As a friend i really hope to tell him, pls care bout ur study, tht is d important part for u rather thn everything if u dun want to repeat....
But, the facts is i do not talk to him or even sms with him anymore..
How could i tell him?
I know he won't heard the advice from anyone
Maybe he will feel he study or not totally non of my business,
But, as friend i feel sad to saw him behave like that,but i cant give help at all...

Honestly, im oso not better than him only, i also have d lazy time
Lazy to study n always daydream..haha
But, recently, i find back my soul of music already coz of a gang of my friend..
I wish to proceed my journey for music...^^

That day, met 1 of my ns friend..
Dunno is me think too much or wat?
I feel that he is different like be4...
Not that humor but a lot of things in his heart...
I know he wont share with me...but i just hope he always be happy like be4..
Dunno wat happen to him...but know that he got gf already..
But when he tell me bout that,my heart hv a bit weird d feel
dunno y will being like that...haha

Thats all for today....

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Sin Yee